This is to someone that i really love the most, although she doesn't like me anymore.


You know, the day we fell in love with each other, makes me so happy and excited. I remember that I am very shy to talk to you when I fall for you, then Yashi was the one that helped me to confess my love to you, i was too shy, very shy, but in the end, I still have to talk to you. I remembered the day where i make the paper stars for you, it took me 5 days to make 999 paper stars for you, while making those stars, my thumb were so numb that i couldn't take a pen and write. They day where i took the paper stars to school, it was so embarrassing because i put all the paper stars in a plastic container, and the worst thing is, i didn't give it to you personally, because I am really shy to just get close to you, but i really regretted because I didn't give it to you personally, what a idiot I am. And for the letter, i acutally didn't bring the original one to school because i forgotten it, so i wrote another one, which is almost the same as the original one and give it to you with the box of paper stars.

28/05/09
The day where i first said hi to you and the day we started our relationship. I was so happy and excited at that time where you accpected me. But at that day was the day where I need to go Malaysia and stay for 1 month, really felt regretted not spending that 1 month with you.

03/07/09
The day where we went to play badminton together, which is also the day where I have the courage to talk to you. That was the happiest day of my life. I wish that day won't end so that we could talk to each other more often.

I tried to hold your hands while walking together, but I just couldn't do it, I didn't have the courage. When you are sad, I was not there to comfort you, I regretted it, I really regretted it. I am stupid, I am a idiot.

The day where you said you want to break up with me, was the day where you broke my heart, I tried to save the relationship, but in the end it failed. I am really useless. I just dont understand why you wanted to break up with me, is it because I didn't care for you much, too good to you, not good enough to you or other reasons? I really don't understand.

Now everything I said won't make you touched or come back to me, but I wish you a happy and last longing life and relationship.

Now I will post a poem to you. And this will be my last post of my life.

回到過去 | Hui Dao Guo Qu | Return to the Past
An old yellow lamp / time beside me, not making a sound
Loneliness mercilessly on me / not knowing different intensities (of light and hard)
Quietness has crossed over to strangeness / quietly looking at morning and sunset
Your silhouette / losing balance / falling slowly
Darkness is already encircling us in the sky / where I should face? I can't see
Perhaps love is at the other end of a dream / unable to survive in the realms of reality

Want to return to the past / to try to hug you
Blushing (shy) face has a little childish side
Want to see the world you want to see / want to be in your dreams
Only if we lean on each other can we feel the sweetness (or blissfulness)
Want to return to the past / to try to allow the story to continue
At least I won't allow you to leave me again
I'll take note when we part / to hug you even tighter
This sort of salvage effort, I don't know if it's still in time
Want to return to the past

Emotions keep stopping the memories playing (in my head)
Blindly chasing and looking yet still empty-handed (or in vain)
On a grey and unclear night, I don't know where sleep has hidden
Before I know it loneliness is already lying beside me

*Edited - 30/09/09

Here's another song for myself.

愛情懸崖 | Ai Qing Xuan Ya | Love's Cliff
妳說我像一個小孩 總愛讓妳猜
ni shuo wo xiang yi ge xiao hai zong ai rang ni cai
You say I’m like a child, who always loves to make you guess

我說妳才像個小孩 總要我說才明白
wo shuo ni cai xiang ge xiao hai zong yao wo shuo cai ming bai
I say you’re like a child, who always needs me to make it clear

有些事太快 失去了等待 障礙 沒了期待
you xie shi tai kuai shi qu le deng dai zhang ai mei le qi dai
Somethings happen too fast, love the wait, obstacles, lost the hope

我們的愛 怎麼才自然 每次溝通不來
wo men de ai zen me cai zi ran mei ci gou tong bu lai
Our love, how could it be natural, everytime we try to communicate

就要離開 就說不要愛
jiu yao li kai jiu shuo bu yao ai
You walk away and say you won’t love anymore

我掉進愛情懸崖 跌太深爬不出來
wo diao jin ai qing xuan ya die tai shen pa bu chu lai
I fell off the clift of love, fell too deep that I can’t climb out

下降的速度太快 來不及踏上未來
xia jiang de su du tai kuai lai bu ji ta shang wei lai
The speed of falling was too great, that I couldn’t have even step onto future

妳的愛反覆徘徊 打亂我呼吸節拍 哎~ 愛
ni de ai fan fu pai huai da luan wo hu xi jie pai ai~ ai
Your love comes and goes continuously, disturbing my breathing rhythm, aye-love

該怎麼逃開 我控制不來
gai zen me tao kai wo kong zhi bu lai
How can I escape, I can't control it

我掉進愛情懸崖 回想起妳的可愛
wo diao jin ai qing xuan ya hui xiang qi ni de ke ai
I fell off the clift of love, remembering your adorableness

傻傻的還在等待 以為妳還會回來
sha sha de huan zai deng dai yi wei ni huan hui hui lai
Foolishly continuing to wait here, thinking you’d still come back

你的脸慢慢离开
ni de lian man man li kai
Your face slowly departs

时间快将我掩埋
shi jian kuai jiang wo yan mai
I‘m almost buried by time

消失的太快 我负荷不来
xiao shi de tai kuai / wo fu he bu lai
Disappeared too quickly, I can't take it

I shall end here, goodbye to all. And one more thing, Thank you for giving me this chance to prove my love to you, I will never forget the day we spent together.

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